Achievements this week:
- Started a new project at work
- Launched my dad’s new website: www.alansimmonstraining.com
- Finished sewing a skirt
- Began a new commercial web design project
It was full steam ahead for 7 days, in which I barely ate, slept or socialized. On some level I felt like and perhaps even looked like the epitome of success- a high functioning woman on a mission. But on the 8thday of this manic work bender, I found myself at the beach at 6am, on a morning run having not slept the entire night. It was a beautiful sunrise, but I didn’t feel great.
I walked the whole way home, thinking out loud in the empty streets. It was then that I realised what had actually been going on this whole week because I have in fact done this one hundred times before.
In times of great stress, I have been known to go all in on far more projects than I can healthily manage. This time round, it is very clear what the cause of stress is. Unfortunately, there is not much I can do about it, but I can acknowledge working 100-hour weeks is not the best way to cope with it.
In a world where a lot of our worth is tied to our productivity, I have found myself, more times than I can count, in a position where I am being praised for what I have achieved in the time it took my body to fall apart. So, while I am infinitely proud of my first web launch and skirt, the cost of working non-stop this week has great on my health.
It is a classic example of the unsustainability of hustle culture, which is well explained in this article and definitely a culture we should not be aspiring for, neither during normal life or during a pandemic.
In a time where most of us cannot leave our houses and the world outside seems insane, it is more than okay to just survive. If we weren’t in the middle of a pandemic, I would still have probably achieved what I have this week, but at a much slower pace because I’d have a life to prioritize first. I would not be seeking to fill every second of my day because I would not be looking for a distraction from a pandemic.
In my life before corona, I enjoyed my nights out and my nights alone, sometimes I cooked, often I went out to restaurants. I drank beer, went to the gym, played Mario kart in my lunch breaks at work and maybe I was starting to drink a bit too much coffee. I was far from perfect, but my life felt more balanced.
I am writing today from my bed after taking a strong painkiller for the headache I’ve had for 3 days in a row. My plan is to drink as much water as possible and not move for a little while. I powered through week 5 of life indoors on adrenaline and now it’s time to take a chill pill, rest and finish watching The Boys on Amazon prime.
I am still sharing stories on my Instagram @keepingupwithcovid19 and would love to share yours! Wherever you’re from, whatever is happening, just send us a photo, a sentence about how your day is going and what day of lockdown you’re on.
When this is all over, we will recover from the trauma together, as a society. Until then, stay safe, stay sane and keep surviving.
Lots of love,